So fucking tired of these bitches
Its not all their fault that I can't breathe
But they're all I've got to blame
Every day I come home
Possibly waiting for everything to go back to normal
But no
It never does.

i come home
and they come home after me
saying "put away your shoes and jacket and backpack"
they say "eat dinner and do your homework and dont forget to take a shower"
sometimes i just dont feel the love

Sometimes I wish I was like the normal families
With a mom, and a dad,
together.
they dont have to go to their dad's house every weekend
their mom doesn't work multiple jobs
their brother, the only one with sanity, isnt gone half the time
and their sister doesnt have bitch fits with each other
no, no one's family is perfect
but i know for sure its a little better
than this hell i live in

somedays i wish i was living by myself
id rather be alone in new york making myself a living
than here crying in my room all of my life

i have no idea what the fuck i am writing
i have no way of letting my anger out
all i have is this talent for writing
which i am completely twisting

did God really send me here to be a poet and write about life?
i cant go against what He wants me to do
but i cant lie to myself either

i need to get away

ps. when i wrote "its not their fault that i cant breathe" i meant that in the metiforical (or whatever) way: like they wont let me live

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Author's Comments: i really hate saying how my life and where i live and my family are horrible, cuz i know there r homeless people out there that r more poor, but i just cant fucking help it!  i hate doing this. but like i said. i really dont have any other humane way of letting my anger out!!!! cutting doesnt work. God bless. ill be better in the morning.

oh yeah, just want to say thanks to all my friends, the Sistas and everybody else. they always make me laugh and just always hang around with me even though im a devil sometimes... they know when 2 ask if im okay and when not to.

 

 

 

this is my last chance to just delete this whole thing.........1

 

omg!!!!!!!we have our mid term 2 morrow nd i didnt study oh yea im talkin bout the wrld studies 1!!!!!!:P

ok, you let all that anger and steam out. no, its ok. you really shouldnt hold it all up inside. let it out when it comes and you wont burst like this. trust me, i know from first hand experience.

though, i must say, i dont hear, or read, you cuss alot. not that its bad. if "strong words" help, then go on.

i hope things r cool over there. and every family is just the same. mine, yours kiwis. every family deals with anger, hatred, and problems. but then theres the love, the good times, and the moments you'll always remember.

just try to remember the good times better than the bad. :D

hope u feel better

LYLAS!!:-(

thanks hon =) wow i feel adultish when i say that lol im not gonna say that anymore hehe. im betta now n i will remember the good times but sumtimes thats even more sad!!! u kno, its ok im cool. just once in awhile.... u kno lol

wow swati. i just wrote this long, deep poem, and ur talking about SKOOL?? *sigh*

btw jess! i cant see any entries or tag board on ur website! i already told u this but seriously wut is wrong w/ ur website??

swatis weird like that, u no that. omg the only time ive heard u cuss is when we had mrs robinson for substitute. NOW do u know how i felt when i called all u guys? i almost wanted to run away like lexi said

yea